As Time Goes By

I can't believe it is March already. As we get older it seems like the clock spins faster and faster. I remember being younger and feeling like time stood still. These days, it's as if the calendar flips forward so much quicker. Hard to believe.

I look back on the last few months and feel that I've been keeping busy but feel like I've got so little done. There's always something to do, keeping the house together, running the kids around, but all of it tends to just blur together. I look back on some things and wonder, "What did I really do with all that time?" Is this how we all feel as we get older?

I'm trying to have a daily schedule for myself. Something that keeps me on task (for something I'm not even sure of what that is.) I just want a routine to help me feel I'm accomplishing so much in my life right now. But these things I have set aside seem like a job right now. And I have no motivation to complete them. I am trying to put a cookbook together for myself. I love to print off recipes from the internet or rip them out of magazines. So, I have tons of papers shoved into my other cookbooks. I'm trying to just have one cookbook, with recipes from 10 other cookbooks I use. It is a big task that will probably take me a year to finish, maybe two at the rate I'm going. I also have tons of pictures of my kids I want to create a collage of sorts. Another lengthy project that is being put on hold. Where is my drive to have more things organized in my life? One of these days I know I'll get it done.

As the weather gets warmer and the sun shines a little longer each day, I am thinking about the summer. What will it bring when the kids are out of school? I am hoping to take a vacation with the kids. I am looking forward to our camping trips. I am looking forward to getting away from the home for a little bit. But still, the kids will be busy with their sports. There will always be that running around task that I will never escape. What is a Mother to do?